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february 2025

yay had fun this month. lots of shows and stuff. hedonism is the only thing i have honestly, everything else is a haze.

• 30 weird chess algorithms. fun!
• i sexually identify as an attack helicopter. time to link to isabel fall's work again, hosted as a pdf this time. i prefer reading an archived version of the orginal because reader mode is much better for screens but this url is a lot easier to remember. god. it's simply so good...
• the transformation. yeah.
• inline css puzzle box: technical breakdown. oh hey a second suricrasia link has hit the artlog. if you weren't there when history was made, css hacking was one of cohost's userbase's biggest inovations, and blackle was one of the best to ever do it. its puzzle box is so fucking iconic, really glad to see it explained and re-released! preservation babey!
• 1992: silverwolf. fascinating.

art

sacrificial lammmb!! i love my miserable little wound beast. i've been through its "lore" a little bit already, but it seems to be the only member of its species. in its dreams, it's always part of a herd. here's a bonus drawing of a possible "true animal" form (no form i ever draw for it will be canon btw because i'm not interested in that. i'm here to make fanart of my own work). and a full size version of this painting too.

foddart stuff ^_^

media

games

• the anchorite (2024): it's alright. not very engaging as a point-and-click game, it's basically three individual puzzles so you don't really need to try many different things (i was pretty bummed that the puzzles ended where they did because it felt like i played just a tutorial yknow), but interesting concept.
• você é ruim o bastante pra salvar são paulo? (2024): eu meio que literalmente falo assim btw.
• florence (2021)
• cytotoxicity, errant stigma, dispersal method resulting in necrosis of host (2021)
• citizen sleeper (2022): i'll be honest despite wanting to play this game for ages now i kept avoiding it because i was afraid i'd lowkey hate it. i can't explain it, it was just so hyped. and then i was talking to a friend about it and mentioned that and he said it's ok but definitely not the next disco elysium and with expectations properly tempered i gave it a go. and yeah. it's fun but didn't grip me by the throat. haven't finished yet.
• roadwarden (2022): crazy that this was made on renpy. liking it so far.
• concrete flesh (2024): woag this is so fucking good. music goes crazy hard too.
• dread chess (2023)
• camgirl panopticon (2019)
• a million steam next fest demos: i ain't listing them here individually sorry. they're on tumblr, list will get updated there.

i've also finished umineko chapter 1. it was a drag at the beginning and i do think it's overall slow paced for my liking but it's saur good! i get it... if i'd bought it at comiket 2007 i'd have given up a couple hours in ngl. though there was higurashi before too so. maybe i'd have trusted.

picayune dreams got a big update that slaps, i've updated my review accordingly. and the new ultrakill encore levels are crazyy. very hyped for the next layerrrrr.

movies and series

• let's scare jessica to death (1971): yayy! long overdue rewatch. this movie is fucking great. my favorite part is of course the mole being 100% clearly just a normal brown mouse. but no honestly. i love this movie a lot.
• jason goes to hell: the final friday (1993): not the last friday the 13th yet. this one iiis... really bad! the story is dumb enough to begin with (why is there a magical dagger.) and then for some reason everyone's straight up an action badass and the kills are stupid and since jason's possessing people you don't even really get an iconic slasher and there are so so many guns. what are we even doing. honestly if i were to come up with the title jason goes to hell i'd make him kill demons doomguy style. but doom wouldn't come out until a few months later in december 1993 so i get why it couldn't happen.
• inside deep throat (2005): yeah interesting enough in a background video essay kinda way, but i think it's pretty shallow without much of a proper stance. i mean sure it's clear the documentary is pro deep throat but i don't think it very meaningfully engages with porn... idk...
• april fool's day (1986): god the tyler durden looking guy here is unbearable. anyway the movie is pretty inch resting! it was nice to watch a fresh slasher after so many friday the 13ths, and this one's a neat casual little thing. in true april fool's fashion i think your enjoyment of the ending kinda depends on your ability to take a joke though. i have a friend who'd fucking hate this movie.
• vivarium (2019): aw man this movie could have been awesome if it were willing to properly tackle and criticize the nuclear family and heteropessimism etc instead of ending up kinda repeating it. it's got nice visuals and a tight plot, enjoyable 3.5 star fare, but it's such a wasted opportunity.
• the killing of a sacred deer (2017): this movie is so cool... i love it when people don't act like humans and this is just a stellar example of that. the monotone performances across the board are delicious and even the kids are killing it (the deer). really strange movie, liked it a lot. i gotta watch more lanthimos in general.
• aftersun (2022): i could swear he was bisexual in this movie. don't ask me why i literally don't know. anyway i really really hate family relationship dramas so i didn't watch it when it came out despite praise from people i trust implicitly. well it's not really a family drama though i'm not sure what it is... i didn't hate it but i didn't like it either. in fact, i think i lowkey felt nothing at this movie :/
• castration movie anthology i. traps (2024): god. raw as hell.
• little women (2019): i was always most put off about the costumes and hair in this movie. and you know i'm a party pooper about historical verossimilitude and i hate a fuckass half up (well maybe the us civil war was so rough they couldn't get hairpins...). specifically this movie is very much doing that thing where historical clothes are seen as like. inherently backwards and frivolous so our plucky heroines don't need that sort of silly thing. get fucked. anyway i'm not familiar with the source material but i think the characters are nice, and i like the flash backing and forwarding, makes for a good structure to parallel past and present and stuff. meryl streep is awesome and gorgeousssss and i'm scared of timmy calamity as usual. it's only my second ever gerwig movie and i don't like to make sweeping statements but i do think she seems a little unable to picture a revolutionary feminism; her movies are rather fatalistic.
• rabid (1977): obsessed with the concept of a plastic surgeon named keloid. this is cronenberg's vampire / zombie movie, a rare but rather natural intersection (honestly i think la morte vivante is the only one i know of?). it's similar to his previous movie shivers, and they're both fairly different than his later work, which is really interesting. also: awesome fur coats and collars in here. overall it's pretty good.
• grease (1978): it's so funny to me how this movie's plot is barely coherent. the fact it's silky smooth to follow despite 90% of things happening in a flash or offscreen is just a testament to how perfectly lukewarm it is. well and bad also. i like the songs well enough but i think they're poorly paced within the movie and it's overall not a good musical.
• ammonite (2020): yooo bathing machine mentioned! fun little touch, the movie is pretty good as far as period goes though i do wish they'd given mary better petticoats when she's dressed up nicer. wasn't expecting to watch two saoirse ronan movies in a week but that's just one of those fun coincidences. i like her. as for the movie, when will it be my turn. i liked it! it's very quiet and understated.
• creep (2014): i love creep! far too long since i last watched it, which honestly was kinda good because it still kept me off balance. the climax is still hypnotic as ever. i am obsessed with the way it glues my eyes to a miniscule part of the screen. this movie is so well directed, it has amazing shots throughout. mwah! lovely piece of found footage.
• creep 2 (2017): do you think they matched each other's creep. this movie funny as fuck (positive!), but it's strongest in the beginning before it starts retreading the first movie's territory. a shame! because it seemed to be going for something cheekier at first, possibly even a role reversal, but sadly it kinda flops. still a fun watch but it's not as good.
• ainda estou aqui (2024): oughh i'm ngl i kept putting this off because i don't really like docudramas and it felt like homework. i mean. it's really fucking good regardless. this log goes up a lil before the oscars but genuinely if it doesn't snap some up that's crazy. anyway. usamericans in the audience never forget this and a multitude other military coups and dictatorships in latin america and the rest of the world were backed by yall.
• the amazing digital circus (2023-): finally got around to it. it's fun :)
• bottoms (2023): rewatch. fucking love this movie. it's so funny. hazel is still so awesome.

books and manga

• nicked (m. t. anderson): it's fine. put into perspective — a lightweight lighthearted little adventure novel — it's pretty good even, but it's the kind of book i kinda lowkey don't give a shit about. too much action for my tastes in historical novels. god the gay monk didn't even do it for me. they made a gay monk i don't care about!!
• inside mari (shuzo oshimi): reread basically in a day. it's interesting reading it knowing the "twist". i really like this manga a lot...
• the corner that held them (sylvia townsend warner): ooooo hell yeah. i absolutely loved how the way the writing flowed between every point of view imaginable. the mostly single location, the matter-of-factness with which the multiple stories are told, the time frame. i'm fond of crônicas and i think she's working in a similar space, something i don't read that often. and the ending is sooo interesting, the way it pretty much cuts off abruptly is really fitting. ending with the convent's demise (being dismantled or destructed or something) would be easy since it begins with the creation but i think it'd be far too dramatic and traditionally narrative in a book that really isn't. for some time while reading i more or less considered the book to be in a sense written through the point of view of the convent itself, because that's more commonplace and narratively satisfying. i'm glad it isn't. really unique book ^_^
• annals of pornographie: how porn became bad (brian m. watson): the style is sooo condescending — the author loves saying things are shocking to modern people; stop assuming people's reactions to things holy shit. and the research often does not feel thorough or deep enough; so many claims (and there are no notes following any of them btw, surprisingly bad form for an academic) have me wishing for a whole ass other book addressing them. yknow if you claim public-ish sex was common in the early modern period then you better back that up! (the notion of privacy is very different depending on time and place but sweeping statements like these need strong references behind them). idk it's kinda interesting on the latter parts but overall not much to write home about.

now reading hav (jan morris). look while i'm not one to be too swayed by those "x meets y" praises, you can't expect me to resist a comparison to italo calvino and jorge luis borges. but uh didn't love it tbh, especially the first part which is painfully orientalist far too often. second part kinda picks up though.

bye!

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