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april 2026

hi. not a lot of blogging this month... not much to talk about and i think i was fully milked of words with the fate/stay night review. which i'm gonna mention as much as possible on account of the amount of words and time i put into it. so go read it, ok? also if you're reading this as i post it, on april 30th, it's my birthday. you wouldn't ignore my posts on my birthday, would you? i'm literally just a birthday webmaster.

new on the site: fate/stay night is psychological horror and the yuriful murder games of the chrono jotter. and there's the new vn, vigilance, which i talk about in a bit.

vigilance

new vn for the videotome jam 3. the theme is spectator and i've been in a bit of a photography mood and figured it'd make sense. it's 300 words so i'll just embed it here, but here it is on itch. it's fully sfw this time. content warnings for paranoia and suicide.

i don't have much to add. i made it in five days or so. got sick as a dog halfway through. it's partly based on a dream i had in 2023 and kinda stumbled into the notes at just the right time. after i paulstretched "somebody's watching me" on audacity i was reminded of david lynch's remix of "american woman" in twin peaks: the return. lynch on the mind had me thinking of rabbits (2002), which is why i made the set. it rather ties with the theme.

it's all self indulgent, i think like like an animal before. it's something i could kinda excise without worrying about narrative or characters or whatever. it was freeing in that sense. to ignore my perception of audience expectations. the thing with so much of my work lately is that erotism is that it's kinda defined by audience reaction. pornography is a body genre and so on. it's a pressure i only really noticed once it was lifted. i think i'm in an insular period of my life.

i could have leaned in harder into more specific matters of surveillance but i think it'd put the vn too solidly into allegory territory and i didn't want that. i wanted to keep it kinda incoherent and esoteric. because that's what paranoia feels like to me. it can't hold up to scrutiny. it doesn't follow a consistent logic.

art

digital illustration. two piebald aether dragons — one brown, one blue — pick plants on a large garden, accompanied by a mith familiar. chibi drawing of a cat-like anthro creature, in shades of pink digital drawing of a hand creature with six finger-legs, making a peace sign with their head-hand digital drawing of a pink and red snapper dragon, holding a rose in her mouth

commissions! the garden illustration was really fun...

nudity and bondage digital drawing of saber (artoria pendragon) nude, held in bondage by caster (medea)
digital drawing of rider (medusa) in her casual clothes, holding a copy of bayonetta for the ps3

and fate/stay night fanart... saber bondage was something i needed to put out in the world after the scene with caster, but my true passion lies with rider. i need rider in mundane situations.

media

games

got a headstart on may's official vn, steins;gate (2009). i'm really enjoying it so far! the art is so pretty and i think okarin is a really fun protagonist. that "chuunibyou protagonist" tag scared me a bit but nahh, it's working for me. i do enjoy a character who's just stupid on purpose, and his development is quite good. and the other characters are great too. lukako is an elephant in the room though. my full review will come pretty early in may, because i'm already almost twenty hours in ^_^

movies and series

i'm also watching the witch hat atelier anime that's coming out, it's really nice. rip dorohedoro season 2 i'll watch you eventually.

books and manga

i'm still reading the david foster wallace short stories too. will be done next month for sure.

till next month!

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